Why am I more afraid of Mormons? Social anxiety plague

I am a Mormon...who is afraid of Mormons.

What? Ok, I'll let you in on my thought process.

Lately I've been wondering why in the world I'm so much more anxious around other Mormons? Why does talking to them feel like I'm in an interview with the Bishop when they just want to know how my weekend was? Why do I pop and weave down the hall like I'm the target in a Mormon game of dodge ball, trying to avoid any contact?

I have social anxiety so I stay away from most social gatherings and make it a point not to bring attention to myself, ever - in life, not just at church.

I have a job that requires me to interact with people on a regular basis, but since I know these people and we usually talk about them instead of me, I'm okay day-to-day.

If I have a work-related meeting or social gathering, I want to die and dread it forever-and-a-day and it is pure agony to attend. It pushes me over the edge of my safe zone, big-time and I'd give anything to not be there.

But the intensity of non-Mormon interactions and socializing, while completely painful, paralyzing, and hide-in-the-bathroom-inducing, only breaks the surface. With Mormons? It's at def-con 5 (if you watched War Games, you know that's bad). Why in the world is this the case??

Do you feel like this too?

Let's look at Mormons
Mormons are some of the nicest people you will ever know.
They are friendly, kind, giving, honest, trustworthy, helpful and compassionate.
They are trying to be like Christ, and strive to live standards of purity and integrity.
They try to help others both in their wards and community.
Mormon's are great people to be associated with.
I feel safe around Mormons because I know what they believe, know what their standards are and know I can trust and count on them.

So why are they the very people I do anything to avoid??

• Is it my perceived expectations? (I know I can't live up to what you want me to be or do - don't ask me to give a talk, participate, have home teachers over, do visiting teaching, etc., so I need to stay away from you so you don't ask?)
• Is it that I feel I can't measure up? (You are "doing all the right things" and I'm out in left-field by myself picking grass)
• Is it the occasional self-righteous attitude some can put off? (How nice that you're sharing the gospel with people on airplanes and that you're not afraid to open your mouth... I'm scared of people and never want to talk to them, and the only thing I'll open my mouth for is refreshments)

I'm totally perplexed by this at the moment. It's like, I know what they know, and that's somehow intimidating to me. It's like they can see into my soul when they're just asking me how my job is going.

I'd love to know your thoughts. I feel like I'm on the cusp of something...