Say yes to drugs?

I've been wondering about drugs lately. No, I'm not talking about "taking drugs" in a creepy way, although I have heard that drinking will take the anxious edge off. And I'm not gonna lie, I've daydreamed about what it would be like to take a quick drink to calm my nerves, but only for a millisecond. And no, don't worry, it's only a daydream. One that I need to quit innocently entertaining.

I'm talking about prescription drugs for social anxiety.

As I was driving home from work yesterday, after a long day of trying to figure out my new role at work, an annoying co-worker, mean customer, and worrying about upcoming events, I felt the heaviness of the day. And of course, the heaviness of my life, which never seems to leave me. I couldn't help but wonder if some of it was from writing about my social anxiety again. Did writing about it stir up old feelings that were fine just where they were? Whatever the reason, in that moment I wondered if all of this would feel lighter if I were taking something prescribed for social anxiety?

I mentioned in a previous post that I had tried medication, but it had side-effects, the bedroom type if you know what I mean, and I didn't want to deal with that. I've been told there are other medications that might help with anxiety, without the same side-effects, but I'm afraid of trying them without being monitored by a physician. Let's just say I know someone who can get me some. And it's not a drug dealer.

Would a drug help balance my imbalance? Is it worth the side-effects?

Something to ponder.